"Where Are You Now?" is about the addiction related death of Tess's cousin, Philip Schatzka, who passed away in 2016.
Where Are You Now?
Where are you now? I don’t really know
Maybe your essence is somehow around.
It seems so surreal, that you’re not here
With us as we talk about life on the ground
Oh, where are you now
When I found out that you were gone
It tore my heart open, left it bloody and raw
You were so sick, deep down we all knew it
But we hoped beyond hope you’d pull through it
Where are you now? Did you cease to exist?
Did you just get absorbed by the collective abyss?
Were you aware? Or did you just drift?
Oh, I wish you were here to tell me:
Where are you now?
I’m sorry, I didn’t call you, the last few years.
Like you, I isolate myself when I’m sad
The only real difference, between you and I
Was that your way of coping, was more deadly than mine
Over the years, we got caught up in our lives
But whenever we’d hang out, we’d talk like old times
You were so smart, and always at ease
Your demons so hidden, that I couldn't see
from Can't Fall Asleep,
released November 16, 2018
Songwriter: Tess Raunig
Producer: Jason Champion
Associate Producer: Tess Raunig
Lead vocals: Tess Raunig
Background vocals: Linus Ember
Lead guitar: Linus Ember
Rhythm guitar: Jacqueline Hyde
Bass: Jason Champion
Keyboards: Tess Raunig